mind boggling

last week i just turned 18! wepEeeeEE!!! it was fun and memorable. one thing for sure…barely legal na ako! bwahaha! …i hope my age wont define who i am or who im supposed to be. on the other hand. lif is beginning to be "stupid"…it’s a new word to my expressions…hehe. don’t know why…i seem to be lost (again), starting to get lazy (especially in my studies), and ncm is making me snap! it’s bullshit really, it’s like i feel less human being there.lolz. parang tuta!! argh! i’m so gonna be getting a motorbike next year for this!!!! ;p

life can sometimes be so bittersweet. today, i just got accepted into nursing foundations…something which has been bugging me for the last sem. i’m full of mixed emotions; happy, that i’m surely going to be a regular student and with my friends, and sad, because this is a very big step and opportunity and there is a very big chance that i might leave med tech, my dream of becoming one (or at least waiting to take it as a second course after i graduate), and my friends. i might have to change my future plans or whatever…got to make new decisions and goals.lolz! got to stay focuse! i know this is not just a miracle but a blessing…even a sign. but only God knows. haayy…whatever decision i might make, or wherever i might end up, i just pray God did it because it’s best for me. hopefully i will be happy with it.lolz. just as long as there is still hope left for me to become what i really want to be in the future.
P.S. Sinda is my lect. teacher!!! wAAaaaaaa!!! wish me luck!!

i can’t believe this!!! it’s the first day of school and i woke up late!!! damn! my alarm didn’t go off! there must have been a brown out…grrr! damn primitive dumzville. so i went to class 30 mins late, i just decided not to enter ‘coz i didn’t want to embarass myself…anyway…i’m here in the library (as usual) waiting for my next subject.

whoa! after 3 days of living in the mountains and a day in the metro all i can say is…wAaaaaaa!!!! what an experience indeed! it was like being in survivor…and i survived! haha! hopefully that ain’t the last of it…though i really lack sleep, ok lng. lolz! had sooo much fun with friends…especially sa metro. clubbing was really a blast, although it’s not really my thing. cindy also came with us…galaag during finals.haha! hopefully there will be more adventures to come, and i won’t miss it for the worLd!!!

aLas!! 1st sem has come and gone. all the intensive studying and tests all seemed to have happened in just a short time. i guess this is goodbye for now, and a hello to sem break! i am now free! to mah classmates and new friends…hope we’ll still see each other.lolz! so for sem break and octoberfest…here i come!! wahaAAA@!! see around!

I feel so lost right now…geez! it seems my mid-life crisis has just come a little too soon..lolz! well, so far most of my subjects turned out well. got good grades! except for the pending chem grade. argh! and of course there’s the forever dreading decision to shift or not to shift! damn! i wish life wasn’t this too complicated. haayy,,,anyone who has a good advice?!

it was just a few months ago when i was reluctant to leave high school because i was at a crossroad. not knowing wich road to take, not sure what lies ahead of me, and most of all…not prepared for what college life might bring! yet, i took that leap of faith and thank God i landed on the right place. of course, one would experience withdrawal, nostalgia, and loneliness on the first day. Haaay…life talaga. what’s most surprising is that i never expected to enjoy college-until now. i mean, considering the course that i’m in and from what i’ve heard, it seemed to be an endless misery! but i guess i was wrong. everyday you meet new sets of faces; days go faster, endless long exams (geez!), and other stuff. now, i seem to have taken a new direction. current events have led me to decide to take a "detour", though i don’t like it, it seems to be the only safest way. at first, i thought my dream and everything that i stood for would crumble, but i couldn’t let it. i must stay strong and sane (laughs), even though i know how weak i can be inside. others might criticize me because i have become a "hypocrite"? but it’s okay, at least my reasons are different. until today, i still wonder what would become of me. will i still be able to reach where i’m supposed to be going? or where i want to go?…i hope so… definitely.